Sitting down to write this week’s blog is probably the most challenging of all the weeks so far. This is not because this week has been any more challenging or difficult compared to any other weeks, but rather because for the past few weeks I have started to develop a LOVE/HATE relationship with the MKE.
Maybe this is an appropriate experience to have at this point in the MKE, maybe not, but this is what I have been experiencing of late.
I LOVE the fact that I get to develop a Definite Major Purpose and work intensively hard at reprogramming my subconscious blueprint, continuously challenging it in multiple ways, while Master Key Experience adds new layers and experiences, week after week. I also love the Master Key system study and Greatest Salesman readings, and how they add meaning to my life
And yes, I have definitely witnessed certain changes in me, and noticing regular manifestations as my Subby takes on the information and works 24/7 for me.
The HATE is the time commitments required of the MKE. The Webinars are extremely long, and at South Africa time, begin at 11pm on a Sunday evening, and never end before 1:30am Monday morning. I have chosen to rather watch the replays, as TRUE HEALTH is a personal pivotal need of mine, and this includes proper sleep. The 2.5 hours of catchups keep me scrambling to stay “up to speed” with the week ahead. This, on top of the daily MKE requirements, and my regular life responsibilities sometimes puts significant strain on me, my family and my relationship with my wife, who is also challenged with similar MKE time pressures.
Multiple times during the past few weeks I have contemplated quitting and walking away. Not because I’m a quitter, but because of the fears or doubts that the payoffs will be worth the effort and strain of staying on course. My time with my wife and little boy are priority, and anything that takes away this temporarily from my life must put back significant more value into those same places.
Right now, I’m experiencing the PRICE that I’m paying, but I’m not necessarily experiencing the VALUE in my life that I would expect for the effort.
Will it be worth it at the END if I stick with it and push through to the end? There is no guarantee, only FAITH in the process.
Right now, as I type this, I’m exhausted. I am away with my family, with a toddler who’s got flu, a few sleepless nights in a row, trying to keep up with MKE, building a business and spending time with family who we are visiting. Is this all temporary? Yes.
But this LOVE/HATE relationship has been here for a while. Maybe it’s my subby pushing back – then we push on! Maybe it’s my gut telling me to find another way that isn’t the MKE. Maybe it’s a personal neuro-peptide addiction I need to break. I don’t have the answers, except how I’m feeling right now, so I just keep on the exercises and plug away.
Am I looking forward to the next webinar? No. Especially as we’ve been forewarned that it’s another very long one – and so the potential cycle continues into week 12.
I will persist until I succeed. I will persist. I will win!